#edfringe
Wrote this 100 miles from home. Squashed in the Avensis. Cruising home to family and normality.
Final show was a belter. What seemed really bleak just prior to curtain up became a wonderful surprise and a perfect end. Really great show and a great end to our short run and big adventure.
I hung out for a bit with my oldest friend who had come across from the west coast of Scotland with his family to see the show, which was amazing. We chatted and caught up and then the guys arrived back at the venue, we loaded up and hit the road.
It was a cold and damp morning but the audience and their response warmed us up. As we flyered outside I took pictures of the gang with the infamous Cow which stands proud outside our venue and which has been a constant figure of anchor during our time at edfringe. I thought it would be nice to close out the blog with the pics, final day portraits if you will. I half jokingly expressed my disappointment that no one had taken my picture, even though they knew my plan. Craig asked if I wanted my picture taken, I replied I wanted someone to want to take my picture. I was petty and as you can see below there is no pic of me. My fault.
One of a number of things I’ve got wrong. The most common question over the last couple of days is what next? I don’t know, I’m not done working through this yet. I wish I’d done more to get more slots, to get more press, to gain more followers, to do more interviews, to get more people through the door. The sense of what might have been, what if, hangs over me. I don’t know how the others feel.
I’m proud of what I did, but feel I could have done more, but then I always feel like that.
It’s 22.45 and we are hurtling past Derby.
If the above sounds negative, it is just tiredness, mental exhaustion. It’s been a blast. Performing the show, a show I’m supremely proud of has been a thrill. To be a performer at the fringe, with a show people have genuinely enjoyed and responded to is a joy I will treasure whatever happens next. And to do it with my friends has been incredible. They have driven, cooked, designed, booked, erranded, flyered, cleaned and performed and made it all a reality, and I will always be proud and grateful for that.
I will miss seeing the guys in the morning; Alison, So on and So Forth, Sleeping Trees. That moment on stage waiting as the audience file in. That moment as the show ends and the audience clap and that wave of pride swells, that feeling of achievement. I will miss looking across and sharing that moment with dear friends. There is something about the daily show, the context of the fringe that sets it apart from anything we have done before as a group, I feel.
What is next? Who knows. I don’t want to lose that feeling though. It’s too vital.
Earlier in the journey I watched Man On Wire on my iPad and saw parallels with Phillipe Petit. Whilst his focus and bravery far exceeds mine I see similarities in the ideas of chasing the impossible, doing things that have no answer to the question ‘why’ and the sacrifices that come from doing things like this.
Edfringe has changed me, doing it, since the proces began. Or maybe I just changed at the same time as doing this. Maybe I haven’t changed, but unveiled. Time will tell me exactly.
For now I will enjoy it, bask in the achievement. Try not to dwell on my failures and be proud of it, for it has been a great adventure. I am lucky, and thankful, to my friends for doing it with me, and my family for being so supportive again, as always. And it is to them that I cannot get home soon enough.
- NeilBrain
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Edfringe 2011 Soundtrack
Records
Wilco / Yankee Hotel Foxtrot. Spiritualized / Amazing Grace. Royal Bangs / Flux Outside. Them / Them Again. [Smog] / A River Ain’t Too Much To Love. Pavement / Slanted & Enchanted. Josh T. Pearson / Last Of The Country Gentlemen. The Warlocks / Phoenix. Pulp / This Is Hardcore. TV On The Radio / Return To Cookie Mountain. Kruder & Dorfmeister / The K&D Sessions. Dead Meadow / Old Growth. Edwyn Collins / Losing Sleep. Dennis Wilson / Pacific Ocean Blue. Four Tet / There Is Love In You.
Radio
6 Music. Radio 2. Resonance FM. Classic FM.
BYE x.